In September 2010, my entire life changed with a stick that showed two pink lines; two pink lines that I will never forget. It had to be the most amazing and disorienting experience of all my life. I had no idea what to think or where to go from there (other than the Dr. of course!). So, as I anxiously wait for my little man's arrival, I decided that I should start emptying the clutter in my head and start writing it down to express all of the things going on inside of me...
Since then, I have been on this journey we call pregnancy. My ever growing belly reminds me each and every day of the beautiful miracle growing inside of me and I have managed to love someone I have never met. The love I have for my son is more intense than I could have ever imagined and with that intensity comes the momma bear in me. As a woman, I think I naturally am more sensitive and emotionally aware of myself than the average male. There are so many aspects of being a woman that I never understood... until now.
First and foremost, my body is AMAZING. I may not be a twig, I may be short and stubby, I may be a little too hair, I may have cellulite and some flab in places that aren't so "cute" but my body is carrying the body of another being that grew from tiny cells to a baby with a profile that puts my baby pictures to shame. There are so many complex "things" that shape and mold us in to who we are, and after getting pregnant I realized that all of these crazy hormones, painful periods, and out of control emotions are all for a purpose.
Everyday is a new day, and being pregnant makes you realize just how different each day truly is. As I add an inch, or find my swollen feet annoying to get in to shoes; I thank God for the gift he has given me, my child. Up until this point, I thought I accomplished "a lot for a 24-year-old"; but no degree, professional success, or awesome closet could ever come close to this...
I Love You Noah.
"A mother's joy begins when new life is stirring inside... when a tiny heartbeat is heard for the very first time, and a playful kick reminds her that she is never alone."
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